Monday, June 21, 2021

Happy Homemaker Monday


Happy Monday Friends ☀️ 

I'm sorry I missed posting last week. It was one of those crazy ones. I will come around and catch up with you all this week. 

I hope you had a lovely weekend.  It was a really nice one here. I had a fun lunching and shopping day with my Mom on Friday. And then yesterday Annie and I celebrated Father's Day with my Dad and step Mom, my brother and SIL, and my son and his gf came over too. We were supposed to BBQ but it rained, so I just made all the dishes inside. We played games and caught up. And gave my Dad his gifts. We're all fully vaccinated and it has felt so nice to have everything be so much more normal. The kiddos did spend the earlier part of their day with Adam and his Dad and brother. 

I'll be honest that holidays are still really difficult and sad for me. It feels like half of me is missing yet. I imagine it may take me a really long time to stop feeling that way after sharing 30 years with someone. I know I have shared a little of my dating journey here, but I broke up with the more recent Scott I was dating about a month ago. I knew he wasn't the one and the distance was going to be difficult. I've also been doing therapy and it's helped me realize I still have a lot of unresolved things inside of me that I need to keep addressing. Grief is such a tricky thing. And I've realized that I'd been making choices and dating etc to numb things. To tell myself that I'm fine. But I now know I've just been running from dealing with quite a bit of pain yet inside. So this summer I have decided to stop running and turn and face the pain head on. It's been kinda brutal. A lot of crying, hurting, reflecting, - but also within that I'm healing and growing. I want to do whatever I need to get to a truly healthy place...so I don't bring my baggage and pain into a new relationship. I thank you, my friends, so much for letting me share some of those parts of me in this space. I treasure your support, kindness and friendship... and I will always welcome prayers for healing too. 😊 











THE WEATHER OUTSIDE IS:
























ON THE BREAKFAST PLATE THIS MORNING

toast with raspberry jam, fried egg, vanilla iced coffee 















ON MY TO DO LIST:

Annie has hockey summer camp now - and so taking her back & forth to practices twice a week. Get together with my Mom and step Dad to do belated Father's Day with him. Let out my bro's dogs. Meeting up with an old friend. Granite people coming to do precise measurements. Errands. Work on family reunion stuff.
















AS I LOOK AROUND THE HOUSE   

It's so nice and clean & tidy from hosting yesterday. I got yesterday's dishes all cleaned up early after my workout. The windows are open because it's cooler today and I love hearing the wind in the trees. 

Looking in the kitchen reminds me that my son and his gf come over at least once a week for dinner and to hang out. Might be coming over tonight for home cooked pasta dinner. 😋 

















CURRENTLY READING

I have been jumping between some end of life doula literature I recently picked up, and a book about ending long term relationships that goes in tandem with my therapy












ON THE TV TODAY:

 The Bachelorette, AGT (I have both of these taped but really behind in each), The Chase, The Hustler, (the kids and I like to watch these shows together), I've been binge watching some vlogs on youtube but mostly bingeing the Handmaids Tale on Hulu. I have some movies taped as well. 




 













ON THE MENU THIS WEEK:

Since it's mainly Annie and I, there is so much less formal cooking going on to really share a weekly menu right now. So instead I will try to share a recipe here each week. 

Today I wanted to share this really yummy gluten free pie I made for Father's Day. My Dad is fairly gluten free because it's recommended (although he doesn't have a severe allergy). And my bro does have an allergy and so is also gf.  This pie turned out great and was so delish. I found a ready made gf graham cracker crust at the grocery store. But the directions include for making a regular graham crust:









The pie involves making a cream cheese layer, then topping with fresh fruit and then using more of the same fresh fruit to make almost a jam on top. It involves different steps for chilling so do need to allow some time. I used real maple syrup to sweeten the cream cheese layer and it added such a perfect flavor to this. So good! My SIL thought it was amazing and is going to make for some family functions this summer. 



NO BAKE SPRING BERRY PIE




























TO RELAX THIS WEEK I WILL:

read outside, walk with Ruby, play games with my kids, zoom with girlfriends, journal, scrapbook












TIPS OR SOMETHING TO SHARE:



I saw this tip on tik tok from a gal that used to work for Martha Stewart. I always wondered why when I clip hydrangeas they only last about a day in the house. She said there is a protein in hydrangeas that don't allow the stems to drink water fully. So if you dip the steps in alum first it neutralizes that protein and the hydrangeas will then drink the water. I'm excited to try this once my hydrangeas bloom! 














FROM THE CAMERA:

I love this pic I caught of my daughter and her friend out painting in the back yard  











Having a lot of fun creating this heritage album for an upcoming family reunion - will share more when it's completed ✂️ 











Is there any smell more wonderful than fresh cut lilacs? And I love this hand made vase I found to put them in. I've been using a lot of green to decorate for summer 💚





























Beautiful summer days filled with fairies and flowers 😍


I'm still getting a taste of home box every 3 months and this box had so many fun goodies - including another great cookbook and some fun tools. I was especially excited about the easy mandoline and julienne peeler. 



Ruby loves the new couch downstairs 💕 
 



Facebook memories keep hitting me in the "feels"  I still miss my MIL every day. She was such a best friend in my life. 





I am a work in progress, but I am determined to heal and grow into the woman I'm meant to be for this second chapter of my life. 🙏 











PRAYER LIST:

I pray for an end to this virus. For peace, healing and unity in our world.  I pray for anyone sick, suffering, isolated, and afraid - for their peace and comfort. Please Lord give strength to those fighting the virus on the frontlines.  🙏 And may the vaccines continue to help the numbers go down and life continue to become more normal.  For my continued healing. For an Uncle with a recent cancer diagnosis. 












PRAYER, INSPIRATIONAL QUOTE OR DEVOTIONAL:




I'm linking with Sandra of Diary of a SAHM for Happy Homemaker Monday.

12 comments:

  1. OH MY that pie looks so SCRUMPTIOUS and what a FUN box from Taste of Home! I'll have to look into getting that box since I love food, cooking, gadgets and cookbooks!

    Hugging you from afar and keeping you in my prayers as you continue of the journey to heal. Grief is a good word describe it. You have lost a BIG part of your life, but yet have a constant reminder with him being so near and the father of your children. So JUST BREATHE and give yourself the time and/or space you need to heal and get to not only where you need to be, but where you WANT to be!

    Have a WONDERFUL and BLESSED week my friend.

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    1. Thank you Tamy! I can never thank you enough for your understanding, prayers and support through all of these years. xo

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  2. Missed last week myself! Big long distance hug to you as you work through everything, something great is waiting for you once you are ready, I know it. That pie looks so good. Our hydrangea (it's the neighbor's bush but spills into my yard so I claim it) is blooming, excited to try that tip. Hope you have a fantastic week!

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    1. Thanks Jean! I appreciate the hug and support so much! I hope we can meet again one day :) xo

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  3. So glad you are getting help to heal. Guess 'scott's' are not for you ;) Thanks for the pie recipe. As usual gorgeous pictures... I do love the picture of your daughter with her friend.
    Missed you last week.

    Have a great week.

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    1. Thank you Lucie! I appreciate it so much and I LOVED the Scott comment! Hahaha! I think you're right. :) Blessings

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  4. Glad to see you here again. That pie looks amazing!
    I think you are wise to do some counseling. You don't get over things quickly when you have shared life for so long, and sharing kids adds to it. I think it will serve you well in future relationships. And I'll be praying for you.
    Your flowers are amazing!

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    1. Thank you Mari! And thank you for the love and support you've always shown me. I hope we can connect someday. You feel like such an old friend. :) Blessings

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  5. My friend, it hurts my heart to know you've been struggling so much. It is going to take time after 30 years with someone, my stepmother was with my dad for 34 years, they've been divorced since 2014 and she still struggles. Not because she misses him, but it's a lifetime that is now gone.

    Be kind to yourself. You're doing the right thing by taking care of yourself first before jumping into another relationship. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers.

    Love all the photos as usual, your gorgeous flowers and that dreamy home you live in. :)

    Have a blessed week, love you friend,
    Sandra

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    1. Thank you Sandra so much! And you're an amazing prayer warrior, so I thank you for the love, support but most of all the prayers. ❤️ xoxo

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  6. Sweet Friend,
    So glad you opened your heart here today. And please know so many of us are praying for you to find healing and strength. Therapy is wonderful. I have found so much clarity, support, peace, and strength form talking to someone who is removed from the situation and is able to help me see things in a different way. My anxiety is not a life sentence, as I thought it once was. I know your cross is different, but I am sure therapy will help you carry it in a much easier way. Hugs!

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    1. Thank you so much Billie Jo! It continues to be such a journey but I am getting there. I appreciate your empathy, love, and prayers so very much. 🙏 Blessings

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